itsJAYDAY!

• Im not always so good at expressing my feelings.

telldanielle:

I want you to know that I’m not here just for sex. Because nowadays, that’s all most guys “want” a relationship for. I’m here, for you. For your smile, your laugh, holding your hand, taking you out, taking care of you, meeting your fam, introducing you to mine and just being with you spending time. Sex can come when you’re ready. I want this relationship to be about you. Only you.

*melted.

I dont need or want Perfection. I wait for effort.

“Lovin you is like a song I replay
Every three minutes & thirty seconds of every day
And every chorus was written for us to recite
Every beautiful melody of devotion every night
This potion might, this ocean might carry me
Through the waves of emotion to ask you to marry me
And every word, every second and every third
Expresses the happiness more clearly than ever heard
And when I play ‘em, every chord is a poem
Tellin the Lord how grateful I am that I know Him
The harmony’s possessed
A sensation similar to your caress
If you askin, I’m tellin you it’s yes.
Stand in love, take my hand and love God Bless.

-Lauryn Hill

A heads up For guys who have girlfriends.

One way to keep her and make her happy is to be sure to make her feel appreciated. That she’s appreciated for dressing up for you and looking extra prettier just for u. Tell her her nails look nice, that her hair looks good. You like what shes wearing and Her outfit fits her today. Right when u see her tell her those. But honestly. & Tell her That she’s beautiful. Plus those in relevant. Because even though she doesnt tell you to tell her, she waits for those simple things. & She waits for you notice. Its one of the ways that shows her you care. When you dont, you make her feel a bit more unbeautiful each time & not special to you.

Fun Friday Yesterday w/SDFF(=

• Finally saw Besterestest after a long time (x
• Played Toss & catch football with the groupies.
• Laps around the park with homeboys
• Two hand touch football w/ groupies
• Sonic
• Cake batter ice cream
• Safeway
• Temple run(x

All these with my two mains(:

Everyone that I know has a reason to say “Put the past away”

Im Offiicially broke. Today I finaly bought some black velvet pumps that I’ve been eyeing on since literally many months ago online. Im excited to get them and hopeful that once I see them I’ll be a satisfied customer(x Time to save up again… poo

The instant you texted saying you had to tell me something, I have already felt nervous. As you were trying to explain your physical department from us, I began to tear. Every moment with you and us three and four began to flashback while you spoke to me as if you were trying to cheer me up over the phone. That everything will still be “ok”. I wanted to drop the phone because of the urge to cry and break down. Once I finally had the courage to let the conversation go, I had brought myself to a little corner with salty tears flowing down my cheeks nonstop. I felt like a little kid being sad because of a broken favortie toy.

You became a blessing of happiness in my life. You made my days brighter. You’ve proved to be one of the most significant people to me. I thought of the Mon-Sun Adventures w/DVR. the ice cream, dk, MBBQ, Dub C, etc. trips that we had. On the positive side most of the moments we can look back on were filled with joy & happiness.

Sure, you say you’ll visit time to time but it’s not the same as everyweek or everyday. Skype, social websites, texting, or phone calls can never replace being with eachother in person. Genuinely I could say that you surely will be missed.

• I like when old friends take effort to keep in touch with you.

School’s been pretty good. I feel so productive for some strange reason. Only bad thing is I’ve been eating more than usual. Insiders all day everyday tho! Even with the principal bc we gots it like that. Lol.

I apparently come off as intimidating.

That’s pretty odd since most people say I don’t. I suppose I bring out this image when I don’t smile. But when I do smile and begin to talk, they’re completely amazed to see that I’m not a total complete bitch.

Eh, I enjoy coming off as intimidating or looking “bad”. It’s only because in the end, people get to realize that I’m not really what they assumed.

whoazers,so high like flying
this boy’s got me lifted
when his arms are around me
or when our hands are twisted.
and even before we leave
passionate kisses everytime,
its ‘us against the world baby’
like we just did some typa crime.
those lovely roses and sunsets
cant be compared to his beautiful eyes.
got me feelin like im swallowing butterflies
when he lays his eyes on mine.
this boy’s got my lovin with no extra cost
cuz me without his lovin
id be lost.
ill stay with him forever,
in our perfect little world.
not going anywhere else
cuz im leaving him Never.

-JeizlRose

•  One of the worst things in the world is arguing with the person you love so much.

Thursday & Friday was pretty good aside the drama that went on.. here’s a two day rant.

I fixed myself up for a rainy day in school aha weird but success (= Accounting is getting on my nerves but its pretty fun. So far im liking how im doing in health, I feel very productive in learning on this particular subject.

P.e day was awesome ! why? since it rained we just watched ‘Columbiana’ Awesometastic movie. Kailah came over & we feasted on some good food. Then baby came over. After two days I got to see him again for 4 hours just you and I (= Im a happy camper. yes I am!(x 

I hate her. And all the other things that came along with her. I hate her nice complexion. I hate her charming looks. I hate her Beautiful face that decieved me. I hate her lovely eyes that I could stare into for a long time. I hate her defined eyebrows that were right above them. I hate her sweet lips that I loved to kiss. I hate her dimples & the way her grin lured me in. I hate her perfectly gorgeous smile that makes my day. I hate her hands, how her fingers perfectly intertwined with mine. I hate her scent that smelled like early spring flowers. I hate how she never asked for anything too much from me. I hate how her touch makes me tingle inside. I hate her arms which wrapped around me with warm tight hugs that Id always long for whenever she wasnt there. I hate her laugh, & I hate her cute giggles. I hate her voice that I loved hearing after a long day. I hate the pillow talks. I hate how she was always there for me. I hate her wonderful personality. I hate her for always understanding. I hate the Great memories I had with her. I hate her tears that she tried hiding. I hate her walk, the way she talks. I hate her personal style that she pulled off. I hate how she lets me free & never bothered me. I hate her patience. I hate her humor that we shared. I hate all her time that she wasted just for me. I hate her for giving in & I hate her for taking in my imperfections. I hate that I miss her. yeah, I miss her. I hate her amazing mind. I hate her sweetness & kindness. I hate her independence. I hate that she never complains. I hate her chances. I hate her confidence because it was sexy to me. I hate how all she wanted was the simplest things that I never gave her. I hate that she had enough. I hate her for getting tired of waiting for nothing from me. I hate her for leaving. I hate that I love her. Yeah, I loved her and never showed her. I hate her for being everything to me. I hate her. And all the other things that came along with her. because you see, She isnt here for me to appreciate those things about her anymore. She’s not here for me to finally show her I love her. I hate that she’s gone.

Real niggas wouldn’t be scared to flaunt their girl.

Just so nothing ticks the lit candle. No drama should happen cause you’re obviously not worth my time and effort to even lower my level down to & ruin myself. Youre not worth anything to me. I Dont like you, I just tolerate you

LOVE’s just another excuse to get hurt…